JUST ANOTHER MELLOW DRAMATIC DAY!

JUST ANOTHER MELLOW DRAMATIC DAY!


What you dont know wont hurt you....

B*&%S*%#!

I’ve known that for the longest time, but sometimes I just can’t stop myself…
A few days ago, Carla my sister told me; “Ate, I think Francis has a new girl, Carlo saw it on Friendster.” I just told her; “Really, good for him.” Hiding my curious face of course…
April 13, 2009 I checked my account while waiting for my dentist, it seems that were not friends anymore… Got a feeling the rumor is true. I told myself it’s not for me to know and not for me to find out.

April 14, 2009 Monday - usually hell day for us in the office. Surprisingly we finished everything before 4:30pm; another surprise is that we can now log on to FACEBOOK and FRIENDSTER using our laptop. Hence, I had a chance to sneak a peek on both of my accounts. Was hesitant to look into my friendster account, but I really have to see it. “Bahala na si Batman!” Besides, so what if he has a girl, I was the one who had a boyfriend a few months after we broke up… so what’s the big fuzz...

Here it goes,

Fumbling thru my account, it was then clear to me that we’re no longer connected on that site. That alone made me sad. After two years? We can’t even be friends anymore? I really can’t believe why people do that. Erase their ex’s at Friendster… Why? Well, he can’t erase the fact that we’ve been friends till high school and together for two freaking years!! You can’t just erase people who’ve been part of your life. You just can’t!

Here it goes, again…

Hush…

I relaxed for a few minutes, contemplating on should I check his account or should I not. Of course the stupid side of me won. I checked it... It is confirmed, he has a new girl.

My hands are clammy and cold, I was nervous. Not hurt of course, can’t describe what I felt but I’m sure it’s not that. She’s pretty, but she has too much makeup on. I think I’m prettier than her, I have X-Factor! Hahahahahaha!!! Just kidding… Why is he attracted to feisty chicks? I am, and this new girl looks like one too.

Wow! I really don’t know what I feel. It just hit me, we are really finally over. His world does not revolve around Aimee and my world doesn’t revolve around Francis anymore. He now has Ish (I don’t know what is the girl’s real name) and I now have Vic. I remember the last time we spoke as boyfriend and girlfriend, April 1, 2008, he cried and I cried… I can’t believe it took a year for the break up to sink in.

I love Vic. I don’t want to make this sound too arrogant, but had a lot of choices when he was courting me. There’s TJ very cute guy who has everything actually, Erik whom I enjoyed talking too but I really can’t see ending up with (not a chance), or Francis whom at that time I can go back to. Then there was Vic. I really don’t have a precise reason why he is the one I picked. All I know is that I followed what I felt. I’m the most indecisive person and the worst drama queen you’ll ever know. I will definitely nod my head in agreement if you tell me that in my face, because I really am. But Vic gets me, he does.

What you don’t know wont hurt you, but the truth does set you free. Now I am free from the “what ifs”. I’m now able not only to move on but to let go. Let go of anything I had and have from my relationship with Francis. If he chooses to move on and live he’s life without me, even as friends it’s his call and I respect that.

MONDAY MAYHEM!

MONDAY MAYHEM!
March 30, 2009

What a way to start the quarter, once again “I’m the late Aimee”. I should’ve slept after the 4th episode of Biggest Looser, what made me decide to hit the sack was the sight of the clock; it was already 12:30am.
Another monster Monday has ended… I’m used to minding the update of two manufacturing lines, actually most of the time it’s only Line 10 that I’m really focused in (Tope handles Line 8). Unfortunately today I have to mind three lines! In OEE land, if your able to single handedly accomplish three lines in one day, man there should be a monument standing in salute to your greatness! Honestly, it’s really not that easy… It was really a buzzer beater for the three of us IEs who courageously worked as a squad to finish the update (Thanks Ma’am Aizle and Tolits!). I even thought I’m gonna be stuck there till 9:00PM at the office. Whew!

Its good thing I didn’t wear the black top I was planning to wear, every time I wear it incidents of ill luck strikes! Except that I didn’t wear it today so it’s immune to the blame I usually give it. (See how pretty the black top is, too bad I didn’t passed any of the interview I wore it.)
Here is the probable and apparent rationale why it took me (us) forever to finish this week’s update. Listed in order, No.1 is evidently the major contributor for the holdup of our, oh so precious weekly report.

The computer is super sluggish I have to wait 10 seconds before it can accomplish my uncomplicated commands! Grabe talga!!! I can imagine myself turning green, tossing the computer, hitting it incessantly with anything I can get my hands with! I was so exasperated, I think well!
It was my first time to own the update for three lines, and we have new team members.
I was multitasking too much… My mind is divided with OEE and the person whom that I can’t stop talking to (anyway he’s interesting)…
Was 45 minutes late, and was a bit upset of the “joke” I read in YM. Geeez! Am I sending the wrong information about myself?!
It was too hot inside the engineering workgroup.
The thought of my bumbum swelling (not in a good way) from sitting all day in front of a computer is scary and disturbing.
I have new shoes that are killing my feet. Sure it can add up to the mayhem, it hurts while I’m working, even when I’m glued to my office chair.